As life issues forth from nothingness, the shining man first awakens as a pre-neanderthal man, but endowed with a specially accruing consciousness of which he is at first not completely aware. Initially he struggles with his existence and trying to understand the nature of his soul and special consciousness.
During a series of what he can only envision as an out of body experiences, he repeatedly observes himself in a trance, dissecting various animals and corpses in a pseudo-scientific attempt to discover the secrets of mortality, and what happens to the soul after death. He seems to have so many memories of his previous lives, but they are amorphous to him and he is unable to discern any meaningful insights based on these vague disassociated memories of past lives where he may have been nothing more than a single celled organism.
Although the shining one reincarnates through several lifetimes during this period of time, he does not become fully cognizant of his unique condition until the first time he actually turns “on” and sees himself glowing like a light. This becomes his first true awakening, when he realizes he can recall his previous lives, giving meaning to his vague memories, and discovers the secrets of his evident if strangely situated immortality.
His focus then begins to shift from questioning “where does the soul go after death” to “what turns me on?” or “what is this light and why do I shine?”
He can still die and experience pain just like any other creature in the mortal coil, but each time he does, he finds himself awakening again in a different time and place, and with a different physical form, but with memories fully intact.
The song ends with him feeling an urgency that at any given moment he may never shine again and his recurring lifetimes would be terminated for reasons he cannot be aware of. He doesn’t know why this is happening to him, but he decides he is fond of it and begins to realize the power of this special endowment. But time itself is hunting him down. Whatever he is, it is uniquely unnatural, and the universe considers him an aberration, continually dispatching the fates to extinguish his light, only for him to be born once again.
Rubbing The Pain – LYRICS
I was wandering around in the wilderness,
Wondering when I’d fall off the ledge
Watching as the goat slips and trips over the edge
But besides the bloody bones, there was nothing that remained
Oh, landing on a landslide, like insects we slip and slide
I was wandering around in the land of the lost,
Watching as the highlander
Searches in vain with a subtle psycho pathetic black candor
He seemed to have lost something of great cost so he slaughtered a lamb
And cutting up the cadaver, he took a shower in the falls
I was wondering around in the wilderness,
Watching as the freelancer
Digs up the remains of a long passed ancestor
Skull, spine and hips, thigh bones and ribs was all that remained
Landing on a landslide, like insects we slip and slide
He crushed up the bones
And mixed them with the soil left of the flesh
And with his blood, and that of the lamb and of the mountain goat
He was flying full of fire spitting sparks, ever higher
Spinning on the threshold of the heavenly desire
As he gazed out over the distance,
The stars formed a picture
The light begins to flicker
As he soars up over the tower
Poles charged with power
And sparks like stars in showers
While time moves inside you, hunting you down
Hunting you down